Sorry about yesterday's post. It sounds like I am totally whining. Really, I think I am still in shock that we are really having a baby. It's like an out-of-body experience.
Actually, I am so excited. And that doesn't even sound good enough to describe how I feel. I am amazed that all of this is actually happening, and it is all that Bill and I seem to be able to talk about.
So instead of telling you all the things that scare me, I will tell you all the things that I am looking forward to.

1.His first cry. That by itself will let me know that he is OK and that everything (and I mean everything) has been worth it.

2.Seeing Bill hold him for the first time.

3.Seeing Trey hold him for the first time.

4.Feeding him, even in the middle of the night. I loved this part with Trey too. Not necessarily the feeding part, but that they are so happy to have you rescue them.

5.Introducing him to his family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends)

6.Snuggling.

7.Seeing what he will look like. I wouldn't mind if you could actually tell he is my kid. The only part of me that Trey has is the nose, the rest is all Bill. I think Trey turned out pretty darn cute though, so maybe we'll stick with what works.

8.Buying new furniture and clothes. We gave everything we had away (that's probably why we are finally able to have another one.)

9.Boring everyone I know with tons of pictures and new memories.

10.Having that nagging heartache go away, and just be crazy happy!

There, that is much better. Just laugh at what I wrote yesterday, that's what I meant it for anyway (well, most of it--I was dead serious about the toe thing).